“Have you ever felt really close to someone? So close that you can’t understand
why you and the other person have two separate bodies, two separate skins?”
- Nancy Garden -
(continuing from last time...)
It was a long and oftentimes painful journey to finally arrive at this happily ever after but despite everything I remained joyful and optimistic, determined to be happy. And even though it took a long time to get my ex’s debilitating voice out of my head and stop 16 years of toxic experiences that can fill up an entire book from haunting me, eventually that dysfunctional relationship was left so far behind that it seems as though it happened in another lifetime. To someone else. Because if I’d carried that baggage around with me, feeling bitter and angry, he’d still have control over me.
The most amazing man in the world was the only person in my life that knew about my past...until now. Yes, my dear blogging pals, you are the first ones after him who know what my first marriage was like. Even though I’d moved forward, somewhere in the back of my mind there’d always been that lingering fear that no one would believe me, so I kept my story a secret. Which meant that I hadn’t healed 100%. That realization came to me when Birdie and Louise posed the question “How did you meet your husband?” on my ‘Ask me anything post’. And when it did, I decided that the time had come to cross that hurdle and release my story into the universe. I am now free.
My husband’s real name is George, which I never use on this blog, and that’s simply because he is – and always will be – the most amazing man in the world. He and my ex have absolutely nothing in common; they are like night and day. My life has gone from one end of the spectrum to the other. And I’ve gone from thinking “This can’t be my life for the next 20...30...50 years. It just can’t. I won’t make it.” to “There aren’t enough years, enough lifetimes, to enjoy with this man.”
Today the most amazing man in the world and I are celebrating our 11th wedding anniversary, which is a perfect time to end this series. I have created the video below, my first one ever, as a gift to him and I want to share it with all of you. It will show you this incredible man through my eyes. I chose the song “You” (by Jim Brickman and Tara Maclean) because it was a favourite tune during the weeks that led up to meeting my happily ever after. And whenever I used to play it, I dreamed about meeting someone that I could dedicate it to. And I did. My always and forever.
I hope you enjoy watching it as much as I enjoyed putting it together.
Thank you to all who followed this series. And thank you to all for your supportive and encouraging comments. Everyone has a story. And this one that started off as mine...is now ours.
Have a wonderful weekend.