Here we are at the end of another year. And like I’ve done with all the others that have come and gone, I find myself reflecting on the past twelve months. Not only on world events but also on me as an individual. Have I grown as a person? In the right direction? Have I been impatient at times? Selfish? Insensitive? Or ungrateful? Have I practiced kindness, compassion, understanding and tolerance? Particularly where it’s most needed. Have I left behind a gentle footprint? Did I fulfill all my goals? Am I satisfied as I look back? Would I change anything?
The truth of the matter is that I am not fully satisfied. Looking back, I realize that there are things I did that I shouldn’t have done. And things I didn’t do that I should have. I know I could have done better. I know I could have done differently. I know that I could have handled x, y and z in another way. A better way. But that’s the thing with hindsight. It’s 20/20. We evaluate past experiences through a perfect lens and would make better choices in the present time than when we had to make them.
On a personal level, 2016 was not the best year nor was it the worst. It lacked stimulation and motivation and enthusiasm but thankfully it also lacked grief and struggles and tragedy. It was a roller coaster ride that had some highs and lows but nothing earth shattering. And just when the most amazing man in the world and I thought the year would end in the same direction it had been headed toward for so many months - WHAM - it took a sharp, completely unexpected turn right before Christmas and placed us on a new path. 2016 certainly surprised us. In a good way. (I’ll write about all this in January.)
I am not a backward facing person, so although I may have regrets, I don’t dwell on them. What has happened has happened. With each new day comes the ability to undo what’s done or redo what unraveled. With each new day there is the opportunity to change direction, to make better or different choices, to set and fulfill new goals, to walk a gentler and kinder path, to continue to grow as a human being and to be at peace with one’s soul. With each new day we are given a blank page on which to rewrite the story of our lives. And with each new year we can look forward to 365 of those pages to get it right.
So I say goodbye to this year and all that defined it, and welcome 2017. I will embrace the next twelve months and all the possibilities they will bring with them. And will trust in the magic of new beginnings.
And finally, thank you to all my blogging pals for sharing another year with me in this amazing thing we call life. The journey has been that much more wonderful with all of you in it.
Happy New Year, everyone!