Saturday, January 6, 2018

This Week

Thank you all for your support yesterday. Never in a million years would we have guessed that we would have needed to make the difficult decision to euthanize Nacho on yesterday morning’s visit to the vet. We could have taken her home for a little while longer but she would have continued to decline and her suffering would have increased. Worse, it’s possible she could have gone into respiratory failure and suffocated. We decided the kinder and more compassionate thing to do was to let her go now. We are completely heartbroken at losing her but knowing that she died peacefully and painlessly is giving us some comfort.


With swollen eyes, a chapped nose and puffy face, I decided to return to the blogging world last night, read your comments and visit some blogs. This normalcy brings me comfort.


As for the rest of the week...

We spent Thursday in Montreal. Our first stop was at a bookstore where I picked up my first ever tarot deck, which was added to the two oracle decks I also picked up this week and to the journal I’ve started where I’m recording daily thoughts, questions and observations. My (second in my life) spiritual journey is in full force. More on that at a later date. And...I almost picked up a spell casting book that the most amazing man in the world pointed out. How can you not love a man who thinks this is a good fit for you?



After the bookstore, we paid a quick visit to my father-in-law followed by a quick visit to my mother in law, although hers was a bit longer and included pizza (for us) and chicken wings, fries and gravy (for her). We ate well and left her with a few days worth of leftovers.

We then headed downtown to watch a Genesis tribute band perform at Place des Arts (a beautiful cultural and artistic complex). My husband’s best friend invited us to join him (a buddy of his is in the band) and his girlfriend, and we thought “ah, what the heck, we’ll go”. I regretted it after the third song, which is about how long it took to remind me just how much I could not stand that type of music (the band re-enacted the 1974 ‘The Black Show’). The performance was two hours long with no intermission and there were periods where I felt like I was LOSING MY MIND. The most amazing man in the world felt the same way. To top it all off, we drove home in a minor snowstorm. I had to eat a couple of pieces of the Belgian chocolate my mother-in-law had given me. It was for therapeutic purposes.



I’m not going to share drawings this week because this post is already too long, and I want to share this instead:



These lovely and fun items arrived this week. Blogging friend, Ellen, ran a contest on her site and yours truly won. I now have my very own Grumpy Cat plush! So cute. The book is hilarious and the cards are adorable. And to top it all off, Ellen sent handmade cat nip toys. How sweet is that? And guess who is thrilled about it? The photo tells all:


Our cat, Mocha, has been on a high for a few days. She LOVES catnip. This happiness boost is exactly what she needs now that Nacho is gone. The two were adopted within a few months of each other and got along beautifully. I am brokenhearted for her just as much as I am for us. With so many precious cats stuck in shelters, we will eventually open our hearts to another furry ball of love and she'll make a new friend.

Anyhow, a big thank you to Ellen for her generosity! (Go visit her blog here.) And a heartfelt thank you to all of you for your comforting words and support.

Wishing you all a wonderful weekend.

43 comments:

  1. Just saw a comment on Rain's blog.... I am so sorry for your loss. But I agree, it was the most compassionate thing to do. It is best for them to die peacefully. When they should... Again, I am so sorry, and hug you, in your loss.

    Please feel comforted, in the fact, that you did the most loving thing, for your Dear pet.

    Gentle hugs....

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    1. Hi, Wisps of words, thank you so much for dropping by and leaving such a kind comment. I really appreciate it. It was a very difficult thing to do, and even though it continues to haunt me, I truly believe we made the right decision. Thank you xo

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  2. Those catnip toys will help Mocha adjust to life without Nacho. I hope you enjoy the tarot deck! I intend to do a few tarot posts soon -- I have done any for quite awhile now.

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    1. I am loving all the cards I recently picked up. The oracle cards have been put to use immediately. The tarot I'm taking my time with. I bought a beginner's deck and the book that comes with it is a nice step by step process. I don't want to rush this. I want to learn how to do this well.

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  3. Must have been a day of ups and downs.

    It's true, listening to music you don't like is torture. Belgian cake is a great self-medicating tool, but after your last two days, I'm surprised you haven't consumed 4 Belgium cakes and a gallon of Ben & Jerry's anything!

    Thinking of you and hoping you are comforted by all the love your blogger friends have for you.

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    1. Thanks, Toni! I didn't have cake or ice cream but those Belgian chocolates were welcome. Although ice cream would have been much better!

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  4. Oh poor Mocha too, dealing with loss. Sorry about the concert, wow. Congrats on the sweet win and again my condolences.

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    1. It is sad that Mocha lost a friend. At least we're always around, so she has company.

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  5. Mocha must be in Heaven. Nice post to read and glad u are doing better. Tarot Cards - wow that brings back a memory of my past like 20 years ago - when I was very involved with many sets of cards - I bought so many of them for their artistic qualities of the cards. I still have them and move them every where I go although I haven't used them in so long. I have been in that situation where music is torture and I'm caught in a place I can't escape gracefully from. now I just don't go out and listen to music anymore. What a nice prize you won. Very generous of her.

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    1. I am loving all the cards I've recently picked up. The oracle cards have been put to use but I'm taking my time with the tarot. How nice that you've moved with them! Do you have a favourite deck? Or more than one?

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  6. I wish I could get high on catnip.

    Love,
    Janie

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  7. Dear Martha! :) That first image that you posted really had my eyes welled up...gosh, that got to me. It's very fitting and perfect. xx And...I eluded to this in my email...when I had to say goodbye to Winston, it broke my heart watching Spencer looking for him, oh my gosh, I'm tearing up right now thinking of it. We always need to remember the other pets too, they miss them just as much. Nice that Mocha got some catnip to give her some fun. :) And you're so right about those shelters...way too many loving animals. All of ours (except the adoptees) came from shelters and they are the sweetest critters in the world.

    Oh....which deck? Which deck??? Which DECKS??? Curious minds want to know!! :) I can't wait to hear all about that, I'm so happy that you delved into the Tarot. Ask me anything you want and I'll definitely give you my two or three cents lol! :) I love that your most amazing man suggested the spell casting book! With time! :) Alex is very supportive as well. :)

    Oh gosh, Place des Arts on a Friday night...should have been fun trying to park. I used to live just up the street on Pine and Jeanne Mance at that big apartment complex LaCité. It was nice being so close to downtown but a little further up. I do like Phil Collins, but I have to say, I liked him in the EIGHTIES, and going to a music show now...I'd be ripping my eye balls out. I just don't have the patience or the attention span anymore...I think the last show I saw was a Milli Vanilli rip off band that I took my youngest sister to lol...give me tickets to a wrestling match and I'm all in, but music kind of bores me now!

    I love the Grumpy!!! :))) Lucky you! :) I'm off to visit Ellen's blog! :) That was very sweet of her to offer such a nice giveaway. I must think of doing that myself to thank all of my Blogger buddies for their love and support! :)

    Take care of yourself!!!
    xx

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    1. Oh, Rain, that sounds horribly sad about Spencer looking for his friend :( It is so heartbreaking. We can't explain it to them and they don't understand. They simply have to learn to get used to their pal being gone. For the past few mornings Mocha has been sniffing around the house. She smells Nacho but she can't find her. It's very sad. We will get her another companion when we connect with another little soul. We won't force it; we'll just let it unfold in its own time.

      I am loving my cards!!! I don't know what took me so long to do this. For the oracle cards, I have started with 'The Shaman's Oracle' and 'Messages From Your Animal Spirit Guides' (I smiled when you pulled cards from this deck because I was waiting for it to arrive from Amazon!). And for the tarot, I picked up 'Easy Tarot', a beginner's deck. I just may take you up on your offer to ask questions because I've got oodles. LOL Anyhow, I've got a few more oracle cards on my wish list that I'll pick up eventually, but this is a good start. They have really helped me out the past few days.

      Oh my gosh that must have been fun living so close to downtown! I would have really loved that in my younger years. Now I'm enjoying the quiet. But I do like to go into the city now and then, especially when I want to shop for something we don't have locally.

      Thanks for all your support, Rain. You are such a beautiful soul xo

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    2. Now I want the Shaman's Oracle!!! I just did an image search and it looks like a beautiful deck! And ha! You got the Animal Spirit Guides deck!!! :)))) How cool! The Easy Tarot is a good idea. It's a process to learn all the meanings associated with the cards, and it takes time, I've been reading Tarot since the early 2000's and I honestly don't remember all of the book meanings...but I do associate new meanings to each card depending on the deck. I often still look at the companion books. I'm so happy you love the cards, do you feel a good connection with them? I have an oracle deck that someone gave to me years ago that sits in the box because I have felt no connection to it at all, which is a shame. I gave it several tries, but never really felt any meaning. I think that you chose some good ones! Next thing to get are a set of Runes and a pendulum! :))

      I read your email, I'll reply there, but honestly Martha...it takes time. It's very difficult to let go (physically), but the memories will always be there. I'm going to make a spread today for you on my Thoughts blog.

      Actually I did like Lacité, it was a nice complex, but it was quite loud. Concrete buildings don't soundproof the walls when you have a neighbour who likes to blast hip hop at 3am. But what was cool was that I could see the Fireworks festival each Sunday in the summer that took place at Laronde. Also I could hear the music during the Jazz festival. It was a nice area. If I had to move back to the city, it would be that area for sure. I had St-Laurent just around the corner with Schwartz's smoked meat and Fairmount Bagel within walking distance!!

      I feel the same about you Martha :)

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    3. The Shaman's Oracle is so unique! It calls upon the Ancients for guidance. Isn't that just awesome? It was a good deck to start with. I was worried about connecting with any of the decks I picked up (I heard so much about that) but it turned out great! Now I need to get more so I can pick and choose each day which one fits my mood or situation best. Which deck did you not have a connection with? Runes and pendulum...yes, yes, yes! I've been all over the internet today looking at all kinds of interesting things, and those two have caught my attention. I can't tell you how much I'm enjoying being back on this spiritual path. I choose a card at different times each day. I need to feel ready for it. Open to it.

      Schwartz's smoked meat and Fairmount Bagel within walking distance! The best. I have this urge to move back to a busy area in my older years when I can't drive anymore. Having everything within walking distance would be great at that point. I'm not sure we'll ever do it but it sounds nice :)

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  8. The power of yin and yang ~ from loss to a catnip high ~ your world albeit super sad at the moment is tinged with smiles and loads of love.
    Hugs from Sophie and me.
    PS: Montreal in the winter ~ ahh sounds so cool you know!
    Ron

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    1. Life has its ups and downs. We were so fortunate to have had Nacho in our lives even for such a short period of time. Grief is the price you pay for love.

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  9. It's a tough time losing those little buddies. You did the right thing even though it was very hard to do.

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    1. It was a very difficult decision but we needed to do it to spare her further suffering.

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  10. OH Martha....so sorry about your cat...you did the right thing....💕
    Cheers!
    Linda :o)

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  11. I'm glad you had a few diversions from your loss. It's good to have something to take your mind off the loss, even if it's just a little while now and then. Our cat certainly felt the absence of his brother when the brother died at a young age; we adopted them as kittens and they were always with each other. It's good that Mocha, too, has distractions. Hugs, Martha.

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    1. Mocha is hardly ever alone and that certainly helps. She has sniffed around the house for Nacho, which is kind of sad, but since we're here she's distracted. Eventually she will make another friend.

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  12. always make me wonder how much animals miss other animals when they are gone

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    1. Very true, Adam. I imagine it's hard for them in many ways, especially if they've gotten along really well.

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  13. Cats can mourn up to one year after their companions die, according to my vet. I hope your now solo kitty is eating and getting lots of cuddles. Your plush is very cute. Hugs to you.

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    1. It is a sad transition for all of us. We are making sure Mocha is comfortable and feeling loved.

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  14. You will have comfort in knowing that she died peacefully and painlessly.

    Congrats on the win.
    Hugs to you ...

    All the best Jan

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    1. Indeed, Jan. Sparing her any further suffering was something we needed to do. It wasn't easy, but it was necessary. Thank you, Jan

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  15. this heart touching post made me literally cry Martha!

    i FEEL for Mocha particularly ,reminded me about the mom's male parrot that how sad his female and her body language was so gloomy and she was silent all the time .otherwise mom used to complain that she can't keep quite for a while .Later mom brought new parrot to whom she misbehaved for years .

    i wish that may Mocha get used to new pet you bring in soon and they get along as friends pleasantly .

    i am glad you decided to get back to normal routine and visited your inlaws and spent quiality time with them .

    i am music lover according to my mood ,but totally agree that music i don't like seems torture and here in past we experienced when we used to travel in public transport omg terrible
    Take great care my dear friend

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    1. I loved the adorable gifts you got from blogging friend ,she is sweet and i am going to visit her now

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    2. Oh, that is sad about your mom's parrot. All these animals feel such a loss. We will indeed bring another friend home for Mocha and I hope they get along and keep each other company. We all need a companion. Thank you for your kids words!

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  16. Oh honey - this brings me tears. I'm so sorry for your heartbreak.
    Don't ever forget that you have our love and support.

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    1. Thank you, Robyn xo You have all been so wonderful!

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  17. Oh Martha. I am so sorry to read this post.
    Sending you love and hugs.

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  18. I know I already wrote it, but I want to let you know again how sorry I am for the loss of your beautiful kitty. I am glad the toys I sent are cheering up Mocha a little. It is so hard to help kitties when they are grieving. Thank you for the shout out to visit my blog, I appreciate it. XO

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    1. Yes, it certainly is very hard to help them when we can't explain what's going on. Your gift is giving her some relief. Thank you for that xo

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  19. It's hard to work backwards through these posts about Nacho and what you and George went through, Martha. Nacho was lucky to have such a loving family. It must be difficult for Mocha.

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    1. She was confused for the first few days and I still see her sniffing around. I imagine Nacho's scent will be here for quite some time. But she's better now. Plus, we're always around and she has company.

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